A little shy and awkward to share this particular…situation. I can write about almost anything but when it comes to something like a boyfriend LOL its just f**** weird.
Ok, so I may have shared that I was going to be independent and blah blah blah I don’t need to be in a relationship blah blah blah, online hook ups are for loosers (lmao); but ummm . . . someone decided to show up when…I had my guards down lol. My boyfriend whom I have had the ‘maddest crush’ on way before he knew I existed. One thing led to another and BAM! I got myself a teddy bear (but at night he’s a beast haha). I guess I’m more shy and hesitant to share it because it didn’t happen the way it was meant to happen; you know when the girl meets boy and boy likes girl so girl plays hard to get til boy gets tired then girl has to chase boy then boy asks girl out…you know like that haha, well what actually happened . . .
I developed this crazy obsession with a photo and a comment from this network – I know, how embarrassing, those online ones ha-ha. I mean I’ve had crushes before but bloody hell not like this. Everyone who knew me about a year ago would so know what I’m going on about. This guy had me thinking about his stupid yet beautiful comment for days and soon it took over my nights. I wanted to get to know him a little better than most girls but because of this stupid crush I had I was all shy. I was intimated by some other ladies who knew him so I settled for the “oh I will just be like a sister-friend instead”.
It took me almost 5 months to actually feel like he knows me, and still I hadn’t asked for his number. Keep in mind this was all happening on MSN late at night when i was supposed to be studying lol. Even though I was offering my friendly and innocent services (lol) I still wanted him so bad. I never knew how he felt because I never asked but still, usually I can pick up on these things (lol). We flirted here and there but I was too afraid to ruin the friendship we made – online (lol i know…so weird). He gave his number and made it out like it was a receipt for downloading his music, sorry about it (ha-ha). But it was a step closer, one night we would text each other like it wasn’t weird then he would send me ‘good morning’ messages; still I thought it was friendly and not flirty.
Then the most embarrassing and heart palpitating moment occurred. My ‘out-going’ girlfriend decides to speed up the process by texting him like he was my booty call ha-ha. I didn’t realise what she had done til i saw her sly smile on her face. I reached for my mobile and saw what she sent to him; “Hey there sexy boy, wat u up to :)..” – I flipped! I panicked! I dont write in slang (lol) and i don’t send stupid text messages like that either, especially to people i like! (lol). I thought he would think I was taking it too far, no way would he find that funny. I was about to cry. really i was.
I text back saying that it wasn’t me and that it was a joke, an accident etc. Then he calls to clam me down because I was acting so stupid about it. He was a little upset that it wasnt from me becuase he thought it was cute (lol…i thought he was being stupid). And then I took an odd step and asked him out…i thought i would just take the risk because it may be the last time he speaks to me. So I asked him if he would like to be my boyfriend. He was surprised (yeah right) but that’s how our cookie crumbled.
Offcourse we don’t tell people this story, I tell people we met at a shopping centre / or a bbq and that he asked me out. Ha-ha.